Archive for March, 2010

The Blues Are HERE Again

March 14, 2010

Now, who’s great idea it is, for women to be part of the workforce? And who even has the heart to suggest mothers to go back to work after spending four months cooing at and fussing over the baby? Does that person actually has a heart?

I can’t remember the last time I felt Monday blues on a Sunday. You know, the feeling of “OMG, a new week is looming…”. Wait a minute, maybe I can, because four months passed just like a flash! I can remember when I just tidied my desk and got ready to stay home and wait for the arrival of my little girl. And I can remember the feeling of woh-wee, bye bye to all the office nonsense for four months!

Well, all good things have to come an end. I am enjoying the second last day of my four-month maternity and gosh, am I nervous about returning to work. I certainly feel a tinge, no, not a tinge but a huge wave of sadness, leaving the baby in my mum’s care while I take care of the needs and demands of grown babies at work.

I feel a sadness also because I took a longer time to bond with my beautiful little girl, compared to her brother. She gave us a major, major medical scare when she was born. Rather than jumping in, and enjoying her company and smiles and little tantrums immediately, we were faced with some uncertainties and worries. Thankfully, she has been given the all-clear and we started to really enjoy playing, laughing, tickling and talking to her.

I hope Xuan will bond with and feel comfortable with Granny soon. I certainly will miss the feel of her warm skin against mine, the smiles and even the crazy loud cries.

Parting is such (not so) sweet sorrow!

March 9, 2010

Life has been moving at a snail’s pace and at lightning speed, both at the same time for me, for the past four months.

I am so domesticated that I sometimes have no idea what is happening around me. For instance, I have no idea when the Oscars was held. I only accidentally watched it on TV yesterday. This is a first for me – a movie fan. And I don’t even know who is on the Best Actor list, except for my immortal beloved, George Clooney.

While I am bathing in domestic bliss (or madness, when Xuan screams on top of her lungs and Rui thinks it is a good idea to pour the whole bottle of fish feed into the little pond), the world is fast changing, and life is throwing amazing challenges to the people around me.

My wonderful, fabulous and cool Cousin Young has begun a new chapter of her professional life in Beijing. She left for China on 4 March and though things have not panned out as well as expected on the first couple of days, I think Young and hubby have more or less settled in in the Chinese capital.  Regardless of how terrible the initial experience or how tough it is to get into the groove of the city, I am sure this would be a wonderful experiece, both for Laz and Young. I am immensely proud of where Young’s professional career has taken her and I am sure she will do just fine!

Nevertheless, I miss Young terribly, and especially our gossip and binge session at our favourite sushi joint. I hope there would be great sushi… okay… xiao long bao places in Beijing, cos hubby and I are already planning to see them in Beijing some months down the road.

In the meantime, I would just have to rely on modern technology to speak to Young.

No matter what, Young, all the best to you! I miss you so! Take great care!

PS: I am going back to work next Tuesday, not looking forward to it at all. How I wish we could drown our sorrows in baked scallops!  🙂